Home is behind, the world ahead ….

By now, I’ve been in Chennai for about six months, and I have another six to go before going back to Germany. Time for a half-time recap I think!

To be honest, there’s been a lot of ups and many downs, and the past six months have been very trying and challenging, even more so than my time in Pune. Remember when I said that my goal for 2016 was to be more balanced and connected to myself? Well, so far, that hasn’t really worked out the way I wanted to 😀 But before getting into that too much, here’s some updates on what’s actually been going on so far.

I have moved here in late January, and have taken over the German Book production for the company I am working for. While I was only a small Project Management intern in Pune, I am now responsible for the whole production and have team of 4 cells and ~60 people working under me. In addition, I also have to coordinate with several other teams to make sure everything goes smoothly (or as smoothly as possible here in India ;)) and according to our German client’s needs. Talk about being thrown into cold water! Mostly I need to make sure we meet our deadlines and quality standards, but overall I am the point of contact for anything related to production, from German language related questions, to quality checks, client communication, workflow and process optimization, while also mediating between my team, the supporting teams, our local management at SPS, another supporting vendor in India, and the client in Germany whenever necessary. Sometimes I feel like I’m being torn into a million different directions with all those people expecting different things from me. I could probably work 12 hours a day and still have more left to do!

And while that would probably be enough to stress anyone out, I’m doing all of this in a country as foreign and faraway as India, also meaning that all the usual support I would get from family and friends is just not there. Sure, we can talk on Skype, but how do you explain India to a person that’s never been here, let alone worked here? Which is why I was so happy to finally speak to my friend Marina again last week, who was also an intern with me in Pune and is now working for Springer Nature in Berlin. Sometimes all you need during difficult times is someone who simple understands what you’re dealing with.

Of course, having lived and worked in Pune for 9 months before, many of the challenges I have been facing weren’t out of the blue. But it does make a huge difference whether you’re facing them alone or in a group. One of the most amazing things about the internship was that we we’re all in it together, as a family, and when thing were tough or just annoying, at least you always had someone to rant to who completely understood what was going on. And to be honest, most things aren’t really all that big of a deal, but sometimes India can really drive you crazy, and then it’s nice to have someone who agrees that everything is terrible and horrible. And the next day you just go out and buy a fresh coconut off the streets, and suddenly India is the most amazing place on earth again.

The other big difference is of course the job. It’s thankfully the same line of work I’ve done before and I really love it, but now it suddenly really matters what I do. As in intern you can try out a lt of things and learn as you go, and if you make a mistake it’s no big deal because worst case scenario, you only screw up your own tiny little project, but now the pressure is really on for me. I am responsible that my team can do their jobs properly and to our client’s satisfaction, but of course I can not control them or their work. So basically, If I screw up, everyone else has to suffer the consequences as well, and if any of them screw up, I’m also responsible for that. Thankfully, things are going well so far and my team is really great, talented, and motivated, so I do have a lot of trust in them. But my work-life balance is continually over the tipping point, because if I leave work early or even on time just to get home or meet some friends, it will backfire on me if anything doesn’t get finished on time or in good quality. And of course, since this is my first real job, I don’t want this to be my last one as well 😀
Then of course, Chennai really isn’t comparable to Pune. While Pune was very young, modern, and cosmopolitan, Chennai is very conservative and traditional. That does certainly have it’s own charms (I love that all the woman in our office were traditional clothes and flowers in their hair daily!), but is also more difficult to adjust to. Going out to party with your squad on the weekend certainly isn’t going to happen for a while now! People also tend to stare at foreigners a lot more than in Pune, at least in the area where I live, because they are simply not used to it. Obviously they mean no harm, but if you’re stared at on a daily basis just because of the way you look, it does pull on your nerves. People also start talking to you and try to take pictures with/of you (without even asking for permission sometimes), and after a few times that just gets incredibly annoying. Even if an individual instance isn’t that bad, my tolerance for this has definitely dropped a lot by now. In Pune I mostly still thought this was quite funny and nice to be treated like something special, but by now I just find it disrespectful to be honest.

To be fair though, in Pune I also wasn’t living a 15 minute walk away from the beach, so it wasn’t all perfect there either 😉

Sometimes I do wonder if I should have stayed in Germany, or taken that job offer in London, but I had my reasons for not doing that and sometimes I just need to remind myself of them. I know that Germany would have bored me, and even after being there for just a few weeks between Pune and Chennai, I couldn’t wait to get away again as quickly as possible. I have always loved London and it is still one of my dream cities to live in, but the salary simply wasn’t meeting my expectations, and while I don’t need to be rich, being able to pay rent and groceries and still having some money left to spend on fun things is kinda something I don’t want to compromise on anymore.

Most importantly maybe, the professional experience I am getting here in Chennai is beyond anything that would have been possible for me in Europe. I am only starting out my professional work life, so I want to take every chance I get to learn new things, gain more experience, and take on as much responsibility as I can handle until I arrive exactly where I want to be, even though I am still not sure where that is. I never wanted to limit myself for the sake of comfort, and I feel like my real adventure has only just begun.

Before I go off, I wanted to share some of the pictures I took here in the last six months (you know how bad I am at taking pictures!)

FAIL BETTER

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Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter.

Try again. Fail again. Fail better.

~ Samuel Beckett

Almost two years ago, my friend Terry and I went to live in Dublin for a while before going on a Interrail trip through Ireland and the UK. I’ve recently started to feel very nostalgic about this trip in general and specifically about Dublin, and since there is nothing going on in my live right now anyway I thought I’d do a #TBT post about that trip. Back then we had a small travel blog called Streets and Gutters going on, but mostly just posted pictures with very little text so I guess I can post about some of these things again without being redundant.

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Searching the world to find myself – Looking back at 2015

The new year is already one week old, but only now have I finally found the time to thoroughly review the past year. I have already done a small review in September, six months into the internship and after about half of us had already left Pune. I am not a big fan of New Year’s resolutions, instead I found that looking back into the past year and at what worked and what didn’t is a much better way to figure out where you want to focus your energy in the next year.

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Visiting the Dutchland

A few days before Christmas, I once again escaped the confines of my little village and ventured out to explore the big, wide world. Well, okay, actually I went to another small village in the Netherlands. Anyway, at least I traveled again! I was only there for a few days, so I didn’t have that much time to travel around, but I did manage to squeeze in some nice things!
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Back in Germany – 2. Christmas Markets in Idar-Oberstein and Munich

This took way longer than planned, because our Wifi decided to die on us almost two weeks ago. Sorry! 

In the first week after my return to Germany, I was asked if I wanted to join my stepmother in helping a family friend at her shop and at a Christmas flea market she was having at her home, so I could keep myself busy a bit so that my “homesickness” and the culture shock of returning to Germany were a bit less terrible.

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